Wednesday, November 22, 2006 @12:35 PM
I don't want you
To give it all up
And leave your own life collecting dust
And I don't want you to feel sorry for me
You never gave us a chance to be
And I don't need you
To be by my side
To tell me that everything's alright
I just wanted you
To tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
I did enough
To show you that I
Was willing to give and sacrifice
And I was the one who was lifting you up
When you thought your life had, had enough
And when I get close
You turn away
There's nothing that I can do or say
So now I need you
To tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
Is it me? Is it you?
Nothing that
I can do
To make you change your mind.....
(why you)
Is it me? Is it you?
Nothing that
I can do
Is it a waste of time?
Is it me? Is it you?
Nothing that
I can do
To make you change your mind
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
(What is it I have to say?)
So why are you running away?
(To make you admit you're afraid)
Why are you running away?
⥠you and i both loved
Tuesday, November 21, 2006 @10:57 AM
I hear the songs running back and forth through
my mind, distance noises enclose me. Im trying to
hold all my emotions inside, Im trying to resist.
Im trying to hold back from deaths sweet kiss.
Theres people who care but Im broken inside
and nobody knows. Theres no place to go and no
place to hide. Im falling to pieces but I dont want
to talk about it.
Ive made up my mind... Im still in love with you. I
need you back I'd do anything that you asked.
Theres a space that needs to be filled with one
of the two, either death or you.. I wish I could
see you again I wish I could hear you tell me you
care.
But instead in the twisted reality my heart
was taken and shredded every bit broken and
torn. You dont know how it feels...Im living a lie I dont feel together without you. You were everything
to me, you were everything that i knew.... you
were everything I cared for....
If only you knew what it was like to love one moment and want to die the next day. If
only you knew the problems, if only you knew
how it feels to be left behind with no one
to turn to.
Theres only my dreams, other than that Im
losing my mind and constantly drying my eyes.
If only I could run away and be forgotten by
everyone else. If only I could just pass away.
If only I lost all memories and know that you
used to be there and pretend that you cared
and it seems that every little thing you did took
a big part of me.
PS: (Thnx to XL for helping me change my blogskin and the tag board. I owe you Prata..)
⥠you and i both loved
Sunday, November 19, 2006 @1:30 PM
November...the cursed month for me...yet another hurtful incident had happened to my life...I may turned 21 yrs old on the 14th... bt the mood was all dwn for me to even celebrate it. It's ok cuz i've expected this to happen every year. Spent half of that day at Prata Hse wif Suban...Im glad to have him ard that day eventhough he was facing problems himself. Was surprised to see Kristy to appear suddenly infront of me juz to wish me. Thanx alot.. And to Xueli and her fren Fizah, it was nice for u gals to drop by for a short while and to pass me the present. Thanx to my bro Colin too. Thanx for the Levi's Jeans. Thanx to all for the wishes u gave.
No big celebrations for my 21st bt instead a quiet nite alone at hm after prata.
Its been awhile since u've talked to me...Things changed alot between us alot and it happened so suddenly. Im feeling really lost w/o u ard me... For the two mths plus that we spent together, i nvr expect this to happen. i really dunnoe y u have to be so cold towards me. hmm...i juz dunnoe.. im lost...
"i dare not say what i have seen.
it may be true, or not have been.
your life to live is but yours.
but do remember effect and cause.
clearly, eyes closed, you can see,
what is meant to mean will never be."
⥠you and i both loved